3rd Hee Hor'less day

16th May 2006 - 2240

Today is the third Hee Hor'less day. Life is getting very mundane without Hee Hor around.

This morning, when I awoke, the sky was dark outside. Looked at my clock, it's already 8am. Looked out the window again, saw it looking so gloomy and dark and looks like it's going to rain cat's and dog's soon. What a way to start the day...gloomy. Dress code these days also, is all dark and boring clothes.

I haven't been sleeping well since Hee Hor left. I really have no idea why. Will just wake up in the middle of the night, on and off. Haha..I've always liked to think of it this way... Maybe I can read his mind... Maybe he was just thinking of me at that point of time. And that's why I woke up, and always the first thing which crosses my mind is always Hee Hor. Could be logical also.. when it's middle of the night here, it's only evening time over there. haha I'm beginning to sound pathetic huh? hahahah

Anyway, got myself to office early today. Amazing that by the time I arrived, it was only 9am. Morning was doing my usual stuff, clearing up nonsentical things, chit chat with everyone, and got stuck sitting with Jane to do report. I mean, watching her do the report, she was educating me. End of the whole "education" thing, i was absolutely LOST... Goodness.....who can remember so much things?????? She absolutely made me faint, when she said that she won't be around some weeks in June and that I will take total charge of the Reports. Man...this is big time trouble... These reports flow up to the big gigantic managers in office. If I screw up, I'm better off doomed. Everybody, esp all the managers will definately know who Winnie Wong is... Sigh.. At least now, I do my portion, Jane checks through and edit. But in June, I'm in absolute control.... Oh Man....

That was the heartattack in the morning. Lunch was the normal...eat and chit chat, gossip gossip. Came back from lunch, then it's the neverending smack smack smack's... Even a QA from Spore gave me a call..said wanna meet up to discuss the project, asked why it was delayed so long. I was thinking.... sigh...why can't anybody leave me alone? And this Spore guy is in KL! Gosh...even more I cannot run.

I also made a trip to Celcom to complain about my phone package. Feel so stupid for signing up this package... waste money only. Very reluctant to pay my bills.. Esp salary not in yet, bonus also tak ada yet. Think with this, I pay way more then the times when I was using Maxis

Maybe it's bcos Hee Hor is not around, I feel very edgy these days. Very annoyed with everything going on...

Sigh...end of the day when I left office to go home... I feel so happy.Everynight I remember to say my prayers to thank God for letting me get through the day. And when I leave office to go home, I look forward to night time when I can see Hee Hor online, and can hear his voice. I saved his voice clip, the one he sent over last night...was playing it again and again just now. Hehe... I have that Doggie recording of his voice also, and also the valentines day card.

End of the day, after all the stupid things happening around in office, those are the things which let me go to sleep at night with a peace of mind, and something to look forward to in the morning when I wake up. Just got to round up the Music Box anytime, listen to the song "Let it be"... and everything will be all right.

Now, I'm going to go another round of Pressing the Doggie recording of Hee Hor's voice, listen to my Valentines day card, listen to the 2 voice recording from last night, play the musical box 2 rounds.... Go brush my teeth, and wait for Hee Hor to come online to wish me good Night.