Belated Valentines Day posting

Valentines Day 2006
After all that I have gone through in the past few weeks in regards to this RHB project, I am really glad to have closed everything off on Valentines day and marked it as complete.

Horror began early in the morning when I received this email from big boss asking me to assist in a Brunei project, to cover for Mas after she leaves. Brunei means working with problematic people, means scratching my head till I go botak also. Sigh…everybody getting themselves new jobs, when will it be my turn to move on into a new position or a new job. Anyway, valentines day was ok… Managed to pull through the rest of the day without directly involving myself at all with the Brunei bid. Determined to put it off my mind for as long as I could.

It started to rain in the late afternoon, but nevertherless, I still went home at 5.30pm. Eeyore picked me up at 7pm and we both got stuck in an extremely bad jam. He got me my 3rd Voice recording toy, it’s my 2nd Doggie. The first was a dog, then it was a pink hypo. Both of it has passed away, and now I get myself a 3rd doggie. It’s really cool that at 1 click of the arm, you can hear Eeyore’s funny voice coming out from the doggie. Not only I got the toy, I got a valentines card with voice recording in it as well. The night before valentines day, I went pasar malam with Eeyore also, we both got each other a Crystal tree and a stone kind of thing which is cut into half. Half for me, and half for him. It’s suppose to bond us together.

We only got to Alexis, Jln Ampang at 9pm for dinner. Dinner was ok. 4-course meal which started off with 3 little pieces of shrimp, a soup, and main course followed by dessert. There was life performance by Shannon, a pianist cum singer. He wasn’t perfect or absolutely somebody to goggle over… but it was a great night being entertained by him and Eeyore. I’ve always enjoyed those moments where you just sit to watch a person play the piano and sing as well, it was like a dream for me because it is not everyday you get to sit close to a person and watch/listen to that person play&sing for u, especially the piano. Even more great was, Shannon’s piano was facing directly at us, so that when he looks straight from his piano, he is looking at us. It was just so cool, just as if he was singing for us. Just felt so happy at that moment, listening to the piano and somebody playing love songs and singing, and Eeyore was just sitting opposite me. Only thing I didn’t like was the way the tables was arranged, I had to sit so far away from him that even holding hands seems so difficult. Nevertherless it was a superb night… great night which I will never forget.

I would say, that is the best evening I have ever had in a long long while. Especially past few weeks had been like hell Part 1 for me. And Hell part 2 is about to begin with this Brunei thing. I really wonder when all this will end. I know a job is a job… but why is it that I get the lowest pay, being put with the most responsibilities.

Life is like gambling, you never know what u will get next. I mean, Forget about being paid the least, I do the most work and meet the most people compared to her. So if ever any of us were to get a chance to get promoted into a permanent staff or being absorbed into another team which can offer us a better position, it will be me who will go (On a positive note). But how would anyone ever know if such thing will happen? Perhaps nothing like that will happen and that we’re both stuck in the same position, same job for the next 3 - 4 years? Moreover, all the hardwork I’m doing now.. who knows? They know I’m doing their project when it is happening. What about the other things I do, does anybody really know what I’m doing?

I have done everything… Never stop praying every night, although sometimes I may talk talk talk and somehow dozed off a while without finishing up properly. I have salt lamp switched on to produce positive charges. But I still feel so negative…and everybody around me is negative also. I don’t know how to make people positive when I am always feeding them with negative charges. Really sorry to the new girl who joined IBM not long, I know it wasn’t proper for me to feed her with so many negative charges, but it is jst so that she is aware of what is happening.