Hot hot sunday noon

13th August – 4.45pm
It’s the time of the day where I cannot concentrate at all on my assignments / studies. It’s hot outside, and it’s making me sleepy and tired. All I feel like doing is to just sleep and sleep and sleep.

Something crossed my mind yesterday evening. I watched this Hong Kong drama the day before, and it features this girl who is successful in career, has the looks, has the $$ and yet she is single, and not committed to anyone. She has her own apartment, and as she’s not committed to anyone, she is free to do whatever she pleases and to date whomever she wishes. With her looks and money, she can easily get which ever guys she pleases but she’s enjoying all the freedom of being single.

At some point of time in the past when I didn’t have anyone beside me, I did envision myself to be leading such life. Told myself .. if I can have career, money and I can flirt with any guy I please (have a variety of different guys to pamper me), so why I wanna box myself up to commit myself with 1 guy, get married and start a family?

In fact, during that point of time I was indeed really going out with different guys and not wanting to commit into any relationship’s at all. Initially it was fun, hanging out with different people, no commitment, all just for the sake of fun.. but later it started to sux.

I realize that I want someone solid and real to be with me. I want someone whom I can tell and share everything with. That’s when I met my Evil Monster… my prince charming who swept me off my feet.

A real devil in disguise is he. He showed me that nothing is impossible when he managed to quit smoking. He thought me what is called give and take when we both have to compromise with each other. It was great having him around.

Like when I was sick once with high fever. During lunch time he took me to the clinic, bought porridge for me to eat and took care of me as I rest in his house for the rest of the afternoon.

How the many times when I was sad / angry / disappointed / scared (especially during that time when I was terrified of diving), how he will reach out and give me comforting hugs and assure me that diving is not scary and that I swim well like a mermaid.

How when I’m looking for a companion for breakfast / meals and he’ll always be there to accompany me and give me a lift to anywhere I wanna go.

I’m really lucky to have met Evil Monster. He showed me what love is really all about.