See no evil, hear no evil, talk to evil.

17th August 2006 - 11.37pm

Sometimes you cannot help but to notice & start wondering…

Andrew does not believe in talking to me about his life, his work, his friends, his passion... cos i suppose to him it is a GUYS thing, and also cos to him, i'm too stupid to understand what he says, so he has to keep it all as secret. I cannot even ask him 'wat are u doing', cos he will not answer me. I cannot ask who he is with, cos he won't answer me either. He doesn't tell me ANYTHING about what he does, who he hang out with, what they talk, what he did... I think I know even more about my colleagues, more then I know about my own bf!

I believe in sharing, especially with the people I love. I will tell him everything about what happened, anything good, bad.. all. But sometimes when you don’t get the same respond back, it annoys you. I trust he has nothing to hide, but it’s just annoying that I have to keep asking the same question again and again, and he simply beats around the bush to avoid answering my question. I dunno wat’s his purpose of doing it today.. I just asked where he went. He answered he is in the lift. I asked again, he said he went downstairs. I asked AGAIN, he said he was with Po Wai. And I had to ask AGAINNNN, then he very reluctantly say he went to look at car. I simply do not see why he cannot just tell me on the spot, he had to get ppl to ask him the same question so many gadzillion time only he answer.

The best award winning answer I get all the time “it’s a guy thing, you do not understand so why do I bother telling you about it”.

This is one thing I do not understand… if you do not share with me, how do u expect me to understand? I never said I hated football, and I know you love football. So I took the initiative to offer to watch football with you.. but you just pushed me aside and told me to go home, say football is a guy thing which I don’t understand, I get bored and I shouldn’t be watching it, should go home and just leave him alone.

There are lots of things I don’t understand also, that’s why I enjoy mingling around and listen to what others have to say. I know nuts about unit trust, but I still have friends who sits down and explain to me. I also know nothing about the engineering world or business world… but ppl are patient enough to explain to me. So why can’t he? He jst say I'm stupid and that I dunno, means I dunno and I can never know.

I know to him, I’m always dumb, just an idiot. I will always remain as an idiot in his eyes.

I think it is a sign from God, telling me to stop blogging about him, as out of the blues he just called me up while I was halfway typing. Never has he called me at nite at all in the past few nights, and tonight is THE nite he called.