Saturday, December 23, 2006

Christmas Blues

2 Days before and I’m burning up a fever. 2 Days before Christmas and I’m feeling at the bottom of a pile of shit, all alone, cold and having endless viruses & bacteria’s attacking me from every corner.

Christmas is for a time for sharing and spending time together. I thought that ever since he had to travel around the world, barely being around in town, we could catch up some time and spend more time together this festive season.

But looks like I’m in for some disappointment.

Past 2 years around Christmas time, we used to go around to different shopping complexes to admire the decorations and to get gifts for his nephew, nieces and family together.

This year, he barely had time for us together. There was a time when he was busy with work, and we both went our own ways. A time when he was never around town as he needs to travel every few weeks, and we both went our own ways too. Also, there was a time he put me in quarantine for being sick. Weekends he goes back Sban, and if he’s not there in Sban, means he’s back to KL early to meet his friends somewhere. Is there any other time left for us anymore?

Gone were the days we used to take walk at parks, go swimming, play squash, hang out every Friday, walk at malls to shop together etc.

This year during Christmas season, he only accompanied me to Mid Valley on a Sunday, that was after I complained that he has time to go play badminton with his colleagues and had absolutely no time for me. The 2nd time was when I said I wanted to watch Eragon, he had no choice but to come out with me to 1Utama.

Other then that, there was no other initiative’s of hanging out with me. He told me to go myself to buy gifts for his parents and family. Who does that? My friend works in KL, and she only get's to see her bf on weekends back in Melaka. Yet, he tells her "don't worry, come back and we'll shop together, so we can choose together".

It’s Christmas, the time for sharing. And I have only myself to share with this year.

I thought the Friday b4 Christmas, will be our usual hang out night, and we can go somewhere together alone and spend time, admire Christmas decorations and get into the mood of Christmas (as that particular Friday I know I don’t have to stay late in office and can bla early). But it all got dashed when he told me he took leave on Friday and is going back Sban on Friday. Nothing else was told, and only much later he said he has caroling on Friday and was invited by some girls, that’s why he’s going back to Sban in the afternoon. Then the past 2 years? Church took leave and they didn’t do caroling? What makes this year special compared to past 2 years?

It was just plain curiousity I asked about caroling last night when he called. Just curious on how many people will be going, how they go, and how they know which house to go? Is it houses of church members? Houses they just simply knock and go in? Or houses of church members friends? Old folks? Orphanages? Whom he hangs out with? Who is the people closest to him in church? What made him go for caroling this year and not the past 2 years? I just wanted to know… and all he told me was “what’s the point of explaining to you when you don’t even know who or what I’m talking about?”

I just wanted to know more about Christianity, more about his life to share. And those are the typical answers I get. Else he will just rub me away by saying “U are so stupid, pointless talking to you. Chun tet”. I do ask questions like this to my other friends, I just wanna know more about Christianity, the different groups there are and the way things are done – marriage, funerals, gatherings etc. Is it something wrong to ask if you don’t know?

I feel exhausted. After whole year of him traveling around, I thought that in December at least he will be around town and we can hang out and have some quality time together before he starts flying around again. But looks like, I have myself to communicate this year.

After he told me he has to go back Sban for caroling and spending Christmas there, I agreed to let my parents plan for our own Christmas dinner here. After all things are planned with my family, there he comes and demanded that I go to Sban for dinner. Hello?? I cannot be on standby for you 24hours all the time.

I really feel exhausted and drained. I just want to love a person who loves me back too. At this point of time, I feel like I’m the one at the “one-sided love” end.
He says things like “I bring you out, and yet you still show me long face”. I thought he went out with me because he wanted to see me and to spend time with me, not just hanging out with me as though I begged him for his company.

Things like “You do / say that somemore, you see whether I will leave you or not? I will stop talking to you forever”. It’s as though I’m begging him to be with me, I’ll be his dog, his slave, whatever it is to keep him at my side. And he’s not with me, because he want’s to be with me. He’s with me just because I wanted to be with him, and he’s doing charity to be with him.

Last month, there was a time when I was confused and as moody as now. I prayed to God, I begged him to show me some directions of where I’m heading and where I should be going. I prayed to be shown some sort of signs before wishing goodbye to year 2006.

Nobody can ever understand God’s way of showing signs. I dare not to comment on the signs I see for myself now. I’m so afraid to think, and I really wish to turn back time to 1 or 2 year ago when everything was so perfect between us. When he was so sweet, caring and soft, and treated me like how any gentlemen would treat his girlfriends. Where every evening he would tell me stories of his day, and I would learn something about him everyday. Where I feel so close to him and as though we were soulmates. Where he tells me that he trust me, and I make absolutely sure that I do not breach his trust and tells him everything word for word.

But now he doesn't give a damn of what I do, and he proclaims that he does not trust me, which leads me to feel that.. "What is love without trust? since u do not trust me, no point in me being absolutely open & honest to you. Since you yrself have already shut me out of your life and not let me share anything of you anymore."

As usual I'll be the last to know anything. Plans of him going for carolling, I only got to know it on the Friday itself. I talk to him everyday, so it's impossible if he says he got no time to tell me about it earlier. I don't know if it's intentionally or unintentionally he told me so last minute... but the simple basic prinsip of life I always practise "If you treat me good, I'll treat you good. You tell me everything, I tell you everthing. You honest with me, I honest with you". That's all.

My yearly resolution, and the birthday wish I make every single year, I doubt he even has a clue on what I wish for every single year...

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Christmas Carols

Christmas Carol’s

Funny, weird world. I just feel that nothing has been going right at all this last few weeks of year 2006.

Work sucks as usual, it’s getting harder to bear as days go by. From being extremely free and sitting around surfing net, this few weeks have been havoc and headache. I cannot even squeeze any time to sit and research / suft net for information regarding my assignment this module.

Work already sucks, and to top it up, I’m down with an awful cough full of phlegm and a nose full of mucus all stuck inside my nose blocking my breathing passage. Falling sick does not deter me, and won’t never dampen my spirit to still continue to go out and have fun. But there’s this old uncle by the name of Hyppo Poi (a self-proclaimed doctor) who decided I am sick, and I need more rest, and I should be quarantined at home until I recover. I waited and waited for a whole damn week, and those mucus & phlegm is so ever stubborn that it simply refuse to clear itself. I’m already on medication (not on a strict medication basis..) and yet the situation is not improving at all!

Actually I think, I’m only sick because I do not get to go out. Once I am out, I am allright. It’s Christmas for Goodness sake! All the complexes are nicely decorated with Christmas spirit and all, and he is making me sit at home while he get’s to go out and do his things.

Tonight, I went with Hyppo to his church’s Christmas dinner. It was really an experience for me. Whole night I just felt like disappearing and acting invinsible. I liked the Christmas songs, caroling, the performances and food.

It brings back a lot of memories to my school days when we used to go for caroling in groups. All the practices in school during the school holidays, followed by yam cha session or chit chat session. Carolling to the kids in orphanages, old folks, hospitals, and also to people in shopping complexes. I really liked Christmas songs and school days was really cool in Leo club.

The sweetest part of this whole drama this evening is, after he sent me home, He called me up on my hp to tell me I look beautiful tonight, he thanked me for accompanying him for the dinner, and he said he loved me. It reminds me of 2 years ago when I just met him. There were times when we go out for dates, and when he sends me home he used to tell me those things also. That was 2 years ago … after that, he stopped doing it, until tonight. It was so touching and sweet.

A lot of things happen around me this last few weeks of Year 2006. I remembered few weeks ago I prayed to God to show me some signs & guide me on where I should be heading. And guess what? God showed me way too many signs that I no longer know how to interpret it. I’m still left clueless.

It’s already 1am and I’m still chatting with my bestest buddy online. There’s no words to describe my bestest buddy, she and I both share the same mentality and we are so alike that we practically can read each other’s mind. The bad thing about it is, we both like to further confuse each other. It can be rather hazardous putting both of us together, but we really do not mean any real harm.

Thursday, December 14, 2006


TGIF dinner - Clement's Bday Posted by Picasa

SAVA, Uptown - 13th December 2006 Posted by Picasa

Monday, December 11, 2006

Meeting "the" family

I wonder if it’s ever possible to be with a guy, and never ever have to meet his family.

Chinese New Year and Christmas time is the time I look forward to (bcos of the holidays), and also dread at the same time… *sigh*

Meeting the immediate family itself is already horrific for me. One father, one mother, TWO sisters and a brother, and each siblings with TWO kids. There’s already so many of them.

When it comes to eating together, or going somewhere together.. gosh.. I’ll have few sleepless nights 1st before that day comes. That’s the time they find out that I don’t eat a lot of things, and in front of them I have to pretend to like everything and just swallow whatever is on my plate.

I thought I’ve gotten over the worst of them all, meeting the siblings and parents. But looks like the worst have yet to begin…

I forgot the thing about his old buddies and his RELATIVES which includes about 10 uncle aunties families, and also all the cousin brothers and sister’s which comes with it. And that’s not all… There’s another group of people called his church members!

At this point of state, I just feel like buying an air ticket to Africa and just tell his parents I cannot make it for Christmas because I’m in Africa being chased by Elephants.

Our 1st Christmas together, nothing was expected from me, and I spent it with my uni mates while he went back to spend with his family. 2nd Christmas was memorable and we spent it together with his whole family in Audrey’s place in KL. It was actually my 1st time counting down to Christmas that way, in a family. Usually for me it’s just sitting in CyberWorld waiting to countdown for Christmas with some friends, or hanging out somewhere and waiting for the midnight to wish my friends and then go home to sleep.

It was a good Christmas last year, but I still felt shy and scared being around his family. I feel akward. I thought I can somehow run away and avoid Christmas this year, but somehow I got caught before I can say anything.

I was with his parents when his mom asked him whether he was going back Sban for the Church dinner. And she suddenly turned and asked me “Winnie, u want to come for the dinner?”. My Gosh, I was just so dumbstruck that I felt as though someone just punched me on the face. I had no excuse or anything, and I was prepared for it. And next thing I know, Andrew said his parents got me a ticket already.

I’m just way so terrified. I mean, I know it’s a good sign when a guy brings u back home and introduces u to his family, relatives, friends etc etc. But… I just don’t feel ready. I felt it’s too early to meet his relatives or church members.

There’s many many things which bothers me about all this meeting / gathering stuff.

Have to then worry about my dressing, my behaviour, the way I speak, walk, talk, eat and what other people would think of me. Then for sure, as I'm the alien in the place alot of people are bound to pay extra attention to me. *sigh*.

Worst of all, the ever favorite question people would like to ask “so how long have you known him”, “when getting married ah?”. Man… on average, I hear that question at least ONCE every month!

I don’t quite mind meeting his friends. But when it comes to Church and relatives, I feel it’s just so… scary!

On a serious side, I guess, end of the day, from the bottom of my heart, I’m afraid to attend functions like this is because I’m afraid of what will happen if the relationship doesn’t work out.

He gets pissed off with me all the time and says I got bad taste, I’m stupid. I dunno when will be the day when he finally decides he has enough of me, and that he’s thoroughly fed up and gives up on me. There will also come a day when he finds / meet someone smarter, prettier and more suitable for him, and he will then forget who I am. There’s just so many girls out there who are better then me. I’m just plain, simple, stupid me.

Most of the time, I always feel that he is still here entertaining me, just because his dream girl have not revealed herself. I somehow feel and know, I’m not his dream girl and not the person he’s looking for. When that person shows up in his life, I’ll be a nobody again. I just feel .. insecure. He always talks about finding a new girl and all that, I just don’t know when he will really go do that. I don't know how long more he will continue be with me, and I don't know when he will leave me.

Life is just so sad sometimes.. Ironic.

I wonder if true love really exist? Can 2 person really love each other with all their heart? Will there be someone who can completely be 100% true to me and loves me as much as I do? Who can make me feel secured.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

MY Wish List


My Wish List.

1. Wish to be with my hunny bunny forever & ever & die before he does,
2. Wish to see dolphins & sea-horses when diving (and NOT sharks.)
3. Wish the fishes & sharps & stingray & tiggerfish & electric eels won't bite / sting / whack / touch me... in short, I wish no 'accidents' will happen to me when diving & I'll come out alive.
4. Wish to go visit Korea / Japan for honeymoon.
5. Wish to go Rome with Suba & Pussy before age of 30
6. Wish to take my family for a holiday overseas at least once, before age of 35.
7. Wish to visit See-Saw Yokey in Aus before she comes back to KL to settle down here (if ever she does)
8. Wish to have a chance to visit Sabah / Sarawak before I die.

Hunny's Bavarian Dinner

Hunny wrote me a very interesting story.. He went for this Bavarian Dinner in Germany, it sounded too interesting that I've decided to post it in my blog to share.

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Hi Bei,

My update for my 2nd days here at Kaufering. Nothing much on my day in the conference and workshop. Just more talk and talk and talk and listen listen listen only. Still managed to keep awake the whole time. Don’t ask me how I managed to do that but I did hehe. Our session end around 5.45pm and we all leave the office around 6pm. All of us went back to the office and just to get ourselves refresh abit and wait for the bus to take us to Aubsburg or something for our Bavarian dinner.

The bus arrived around 6.40pm and we all took off for our surprised dinner. The ride took us around 40 minutes. The distance was around 40km from our hotel. We arrived at the town center and all the building is very old type. Just like something in Vienna. I guess all the building here look alike. The road is those old type cobbler stone road. We arrived at the restaurant a bit earlier and the people there is not ready yet. We have to wait outside like for 10 minutes for them to open up the place.

After for awhile, we all marching into the unknown and what the surprise hold for us. First, we walked down the stair and it look like a dungeon or something near like that. All of us hang our jackets, coat or whatever on the closet first. After that, we process to enter the mysterious place. There is a lady waiting for us at the entrance with a pot of water and a basin. We suppose to put our hand in the basin and she will pour the water for us to wash our hand. Then there is a towel for us to dry our hand. Next, we process to enter deeper, this time a guy waiting for us and pass us this cow horn cup (u know the cow horn, they make a hole in it and turn it into a cup). It contain some sort of honey beer which is quite nice and strong. Taste a bit like honey mixed with liquor. As we standing there to finish our welcome drinks, there another big guy tie a big big white napkin over our chest.. like a big baby napkin.

The enter to a small room and the place look like those old ancient type of dungeon where you see old knight or old England type of diner place. They have a very special rules in this restaurant on how we should eat our foods and how it will be served. On the table, we only have a wooden board as our plate and a dagger (yes a big dagger) as our tools to replace fork and spoon. Haha..On the table, there this bread call rock break which you suppose to break it into half and share it with your neighbors. To eat along with it, they prepared some sort of fatting cheese type to swap on the bread. This tasted not too bad. Kind of weird taste but nice. So, as I was saying in the beginning, there are certain house rules that we need to follow.

We have to use our hand to eat the foods like what people do in the older time.
There is no other tools other than the dagger provided.
Normally in the older time, men’s and women’s don’t sit together for dinner but when they do, they are there to serve the other guest..haha
For the current time, If there is not women present at the table, then the waiter or waitress will select one of the guy to be elected as the women for the table for the night.
The elected maiden for the night only need to serve one of the course only. (the whole dinner is already pre-order, just like Chinese banquet style) We have about 7 course dinner at this restaurant.
The maiden have to serve every single person at the table. She/he need to fill everyone cup to make sure it is always full and when the foods arrived, she have to serve the foods to everyone plate. The rest of us are not allow to serve ourselves. If we do that, then we will be punish by kissing the waitress (if a guy commit the crime) or kiss the waiter (if a gal commit the crime).
The style of eating the foods there. Everyone suppose to make a lot of noise while consuming the foods. For example, if the soup is serve, we need to drink the soup with a lot of noise and if there is any noodle or meat, we have scoop it up with our fingers.
After the first course is serve, the hat the maiden force to wear will pass to the next person and his turn to serve the rest hehe…

A few of them got punish for making a few mistake like one of them, they didn’t serve fast enough that one of the guest on the table have to pour the drink himself. He was put into a big huge wooden handcuff and get spank by a big spoon spatula hehe. Another one, a bit drunk already himself, was pouring the beer around the table and he accidentally pour the beer to one of the sauce cup haha…the cup was full of apple sauce. He was punish the same way.

The meals was quite different and nice in a way. The first meal was some type of lamb soup. Just taste like kambing soup haha. The second dish was some fried fish meat that they roll into fishball type. The next dish was something like a square. It some sort of pork meat with pork fat. Taste funny but dun care, just put inside the mouth and swallow it. The fourth dish was something meaty. I kind of forgot what was it haha. I remember we have to leave some foods on the plate. We cannot finish our foods because it is the Bavarian way of leaving some foods for the poor people. All the leave over foods we put inside a bowl and the waiter will leave it outside for the poor. The last dish is roast goose. The waiter will chop it to pieces and the next person will serve it to everyone. I had the goose leg which is crunchy and nice.

In between the meals, there is this person with a guitar will come in and sing some songs with us. He will sings all the old folk songs and some children songs with action with us. We have to follow him and do all the actions just like when we were kids hehe.

After that, they serve us some fruits as the final dish and we depart from the restaurant to our hotel. That the end of the day two for me hehe.

Friday, September 22, 2006


A new dress I bought, together with my mask for Masquerade dinner tomorrow Posted by Picasa

Sunday, September 17, 2006

1st Sunday without Bunny

Today is the 1st day without Bunny again...

But however, the whole of today he has called me 3 times, and talked on Skype for a short while just now. I feel so happy and lucky to have a bf like him.

I woke up this morning about 9am. Then went over to Waja service centre to drop off the Waja to fix the absorber, then dad picked us (me & vivien) up from there and together with Uncle Chan went down KL to have that famous mushroom Pan Mee stall at the side of the road. The soup was rich with ikan bilis & mushroom taste, it was tasty. The mee itself was just the perfect thickness and smoothness. It was this time when Hunny called me the 1st time. Said he just arrived at Zurich, waiting to transit off to Munich.

After that, as usual, I drove my little SLK back to Sban. On the way there, we saw this whole long stretch of Mini Coupers on a Convoy guided by so many police motorcycles. Multi coloured mini coupers from different states in Msia. Abit lebih lebih of them that the police cleared up 2 whole lanes for the coupers, who were only using 1 lane (the fast lane), and jamming up the whole road for other cars.

Nothing much happened today, just an ordinary Sunday. After Sban, came home to do some office work, read story-book, and just finished watching 'Dick & Jane'. I've just completed my office work too. Right as I was driving back from Sban, HUnny called me 2nd time.

In the evening, I went out to Giant, 1utama with my parents to grab some groceries... and hunny called me 3rd time. This was when my dad was saying that Hunny is such a nice guy. That even though he's so far away, he still calls back to me and he must really care for me *grin*.

I wonder if for the rest of the 3 weeks he will contact me this often also... I wish he would. I love hearing him story me about his life there.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Monster gone with the Plane.

There goes Evil monster again.. gone with the plane. He has just left for Germany for another 3 weeks this time. When he comes back, there he'll go again to Japan for another few weeks.

This time he's over there for 1 half week in Germany for some conference.. hotel got no internet access somemore. But he promised to mail me everyday.. hope he keeps his promise and not send me short emails like "hi, how r u? I am fine. Take care. See u. Bye".

Hope he'll have fun there and bring back loads of stories & photo's to share with me later. Will be missing him.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

4 Days in a Row

I think hunny looks very handsome these days... I do not know what exactly is different with him that made him look different, but for sure... he does look more charming and handsome then before.

I wanna start off with my 4 Days in a Row story. Sunday night we went to Sri Petaling to swim and to test out Hypo's underwater camera. Monday night we went Pasar Malam to buy stickers and walked around. Tuesday night we came to 1u wanting to go to the forrency exchange, but they didn't have enuf Euro. Wednesday, a brief meeting with him at my office's car park.

I was just walking out of office with my colleagues for lunch, and we saw Hypo & his colleague walking towards 1 u also. It was only a short walk with him and already parted when we reached the lift. My colleagues were complimenting him, said his tummy looks smaller and he looks more handsome then he is in photo's. Initially I thought can meet up with him after lunch so can see him a while more, but he was with his colleague & he said he don't want me around.

I really think he's looking more and more handsome lately... =) No joke.

Celebrating Sumi's Bday in Nando's, 1 Utama Posted by Picasa

My 2nd APIIT module - EDS assignment. Posted by Picasa

Friday, September 08, 2006

Handsome Monster day

Today is handsome monsterous bunny day...

Early morning, I already planned to travel to Rush for the GTS party in the afternoon. Then my supervisor / 'mother' asked me to go there early to help out with registration, and be there by 2pm... so I thought ok'lor... I arranged with the secretary to follow them, they said they will leave about 1pm+.

So at 12noon, I went for lunch. Here I ordered my food, there they said they were leaving. So I told them to go ahead. After my lunch, I went back office settle some stuff, scan some documents, and was waiting for another colleague to give me a ride... wait wait wait, that colleague haven't leave yet. Then I was prepared already to go take a cab to Rush myself... but thank goodness my saviour called me at that time. My handsome hunny bunny called and say he'll give me a lift. (Oh..correction, that time is still Hairy Monster.)

Saviour saviour... I reached Rush, and not a single soul was around. I stupid dupid go stand there and wait, called the secretaries they say they in the car park. i Wait wait wait... then they arrived.

After that, it was more of stand stand, sit sit, talk talk all the way until 3pm when people start rolling in 1 by 1. The function itself only really started about 4pm+.

Started with a short speach, then followed by paperdoll dancing. Those paperdoll's huh..really funny bunch. After a few dances by them, it was break time where we went out to grab snacks to eat. While we were
they had this beer drinking game. I was just walking back to my place after my snack, and this Uncle Lee came to pull my hands and led me to the stage, MALU betul.

But since there were sooo many people on stage, so nevermind'lar, I just go and drink. The rule is to see who finishes a glass of beer the fastest. The fastest in each table will proceed to the next round. I finished 2nd on my table, so i didn't get to proceed.

After the beer competition, it's followed on with more paperdoll dance, more beer and 6.30pm it's time for me togo home.

Hunny came to pick me, and now he has suddenly transformed from Hairy Monster to Handsome Monsterous Bunny. From a faded patchy t-shirt, he changed to a long sleeve SHIRT. From a hairy mairy face, he shaved to a smooth handsome sleek face. He just somehow looks sooooo handsome tonight.

He took me back to office, waited for me a while when I finish up my work, then we walked to 1u to have dinner - PIZZA!

After that, we walked around then came back. He really honestly looks very handsome tonight, it's been a long time since I last saw him dressed so nicely. Sleek and handsome. My heart felt so heavy when I had to part with him just now..

Then another thing is, I learn never to put nonsence captions on your MSN. hehe Since now that my office colleague have added me into his MSN caption, I also must jaga jaga sikit. After I came home, then chat chat awhile with my colleague online. He has just left office to go home.. so it's also time for me to bla. Nitesss

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Hairy Monster day

Today is a Hairy monster day...

A very happy day.. 1st of all, I haven't seen Hairy Monster since last Thursday, and Hairy Monster came over to have lunch together with me. Since he moved to his new office, and since I moved to my new office, this is the 1st time he voluntered to come have lunch together with me. Usually he'll go with his friends & colleagues. It was a real pleasant happy lunch, being able to see my Hunny during the day. He's a hairy monster today, with his bulu being easily 1 or 2 cm long.

We went back to Craving's for lunch.. he had the claypot loh shu fun (which he said it tasted like his favourite Hokkein fried mee in Jln 227. I had this Chicken Rice Wine Mee Sua, and it was delicious, but expensive..about RM15 for just my food.

After that we walked around awhile before going back office.

My 2nd happening happy session today, was that Hairy Monster picked me home from office and gave me a lift to SIM TTDI. I was to meet Vicky there at 6.30pm, and Hairy Monster fetched me there.

Vicky wanted me to play the piano to accompany her students when they go in for their violin exam. I have 4 Grade 1's, 1 Grade 2, 1 Grade 4 and 1 Grade 6. So far I've met all of them already, just haven't met the Grade 6 girl/guy. The pieces all I think is managable... Grade 4 is abit tricky..but I suppose with practise it's fine. I'm really glad that such opportunity came by my way... Although I didn't make it through Diploma, at least I'm glad Vicky gave me a chance and let me expose myself more in the Music world.. learn how to play as an accompanist. In my younger grades I used to play duet's and perform.. it had been fun. Now I get to accompany violinist... it does sound cool. Hope it'll turn out well.. practises with the violin exam students starts in October, and I'll have few weeks in September to practise and prepare 1st.

After class about 8.30pm, Hairy monster came to pick me up for dinner and sent me home after that. Today was really like a dream came true. I get to see hairy monster during lunch, and also in the evening... and after next week, I won't get to see him at all for 3 whole weeks. :(

We went to Murni for dinner... It was really nice to see him again, to have him holding my hands or holding my waist or shoulder when we walk...

I;m missing him again already...

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Lovely Sunday

I have had a Lovely Sunday today.. Other then the fact that I still can't stop thinking of Celine about how much I miss her, I have indeed had a great Sunday.

I woke up about 9am+, close to 10am. Spent my morning in front of the TV watching some chinese drama DVD my dad bought, some police detective investigating show. After that which we started driving to Sban, but halfway the water starts to boil and the aircond was killing us, we ended up driving to State for Wan Tan Mee lunch, and came back home. My car spoilt.

I spent the rest of my afternoon in front of the Astro watching Anime show's while compiling my documents for meeting tomorrow morning. It was all dubbed in English, and the graphic's ain't that good at all. I was actually in fact looking out more for those 2 hours Anime shows like 'Grave of the Fireflies' or something similar to it. I loved Grave of the Fireflies, it was in Japanese and the little girl was sooo cute. There was another movie kinda show I liked... cannot quite remember what's the title.. About a girl who went somewhere with her parents, and somehow she ended up in ANOTHER world. Then she goes running and hiding etc.

I guess the reason why I liked anime is bcos it doesn't need to be logical, just like cartoon's. It create's it's own fantasy. Part of it reflects real life, but the other part is fantasy... One of the episod of Anime today i watched is called "adventure of Kogi" or something like that...about a traveller (with a talking motorbike) who travels from town to town but can never stay in a town for more then 3 days. It talks about her adventure.

Evening time, I finally had my crab crab which I have longed for for weeks! I had my sweet&sour crab.. yummy.We had dinner with Uncle Han's family. A funny thing happened yesterday

Lunch time Uncle Han came over to my house yesterday. Mom boiled fish porridge and he ate a bowl of it. Somehow the fish bone got stuck in his throat that later in the afternoon he had to go into the hospital emergency ward to get it removed. I ate 2 bowls of porridge (1 for breakfast, 1 for lunch) and I didn't come across any bones at all.

So I guess that was one of the reason why dad wanted to treat him eat tonight. So bloated after the dinner. While waiting for Uncle Han, Vincent & I shared a bottle of beer (each 1 mug). We took the set dinner, so they gave a free bottle of wine in which I had another glass of wine during dinner.

Now i'm bloated and sleepy. Another long day tomorrow of bugging people from Netherlands and Australia ... and for boss to bug me too.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Bunny in Spore

I've completed my 3 hour exam today... Out of 5 Question choose 4 Question exam on Database, each 50 marks. Total 200 marks will be divided into 100 marks.

Got 1 part of the question worth 15marks, i completely for'go that. Didn't have time to do it (Wasted 30minutes trying to figure out how to draw my ERD, and in the end I gave up and didn't do that question.) and didn't have enough time to even tembak to attempt to put something down on paper hoping that it's correct. I did have a wild guess answer in my mind which I thought MIGHT be the answer..but simply time didn't permit me to do so.

Bunny is in Spore at the moment. Went there again this weekend for his checkup with his Nephew and parents. At first I didn't really think about it, it just crossed my mind that I miss Celine and I miss Bunny. But just now dinner time Bunny called back and got Celine on the phone... Hearing her voice there makes me miss her even more. I just feel like holding her in my arms and hugging her. Bunny won't let me hug him, say his stomach pain. But Celine will let me carry and hug her... She will call me "che che" and ask me to carry her.

After I came home from my exam, I watch watch Beethoven2 on astro till I fell asleep on the sofa. Came back my room to sleep, cannot sleep. End up coming online to transfer funds to my mom and settle my PTPTN loan for this year.

Now I'm officially broke. Neh neh neh...now I'm gonna hang around to chat awhile before going to sleep... at least hanging online to chat is FOC, so it's ok.

Today I suddenly got craving for sooo many things. Suddenly wanna go Murni to have the Nasi Lemak there. Then thinking of Sweet Sour crabs / Cheesy crabs. There's my steamboat and Bak Kut Teh and Asam Laksa also. YuMMmmm..

My office colleague Y is leaving for Leads to furthur her studies in Masters of hotel management. Her last day in office is 14th Sept 06. I'm definately gonna miss her.. Miss having a chatting partner, and a Lunch partner. After she leaves, I won't have a fixed lunch partner anymore and will need to find multiple lunch partners.

She's a nice friend to have around.. but when it comes to work, she's abit stubborn that I sometimes do not know how to explain to her. It's like... I've been around 1 year plus and having been exposed to many things, I know the procedures and things better then her. But when I try to explain to her, she refuses to listen, she only sticks to what she thinks it is. Almost end up fighting again with her last Friday.

Boss is pressuring me to get things done, and I'm trying my best. I need to extract info from the project she handled before. But she doesn't seem to know anything, didn't document things properly and kept insisting that I'm wrong. I guess in a way also, she's planning to leave and her heart is no longer there in IBM. Then I have to go around the whole world broadening my contact. Already I have to deal with 2 Netherland guys who is 7 hours behind our time.. and now for another deal I have to liase with an Australian guy who is 2 hours ahead of our time.

These days pressure gila from Boss. Bad enough he sit's right in front of me... almost every hour he will ask me his favourite phrase "how's it?". He listens to my phone conversations (esp when I'm on the line with the sales person) and ah... I feel tortured. Must always mind my words, actions etc.

13hours to my EDS examination.

1am on a Saturday morning, feeling very exhausted. 13 hours to my EDS examination.

A terribly busy day in office today, and came home had to still prepare for my exam tomorrow. Whole body aching now. Hope I can answer tomorrow's questions and do well in it.

Today, I spent only Rm3.20 for lunch.. Boleh'ler..not too bad. But it was a complete waste, my Pan Mee had caterpiller inside. Wasted..I've only eaten half of it when I saw the caterpiller. Couldn't bring myself to eat anymore.

Hunny going to go Spore again tomorrow to open his stitches..I'm going to miss him again.

Do hope he'll get enough rest tonight and drive carefully tomorrow. He spent his whole night again at Sri Petaling with his friends and only got back not long ago. Always play play play until he forget's his time and don't know how to prioritise his time. No eye see hin... Gonna Shut my eyes and go rest first. Gonna wake up morning to run thru again.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Hunny's Condo rented out.

A very good news today... Hunny slept over at his condo last night, and he called me up this morning 11am+. Asked if I wanted to follow him over to his condo in the afternoon as his agents wanna bring customers over to view the unit. So I agreed.

Hunny came over my place for lunch, then I followed him over.. many people came over to see... An indian family (husband, wife & a small son) came over to view the unit 1st time today, they were happy, and immediately they gave deposit for the place, and wanna move in tomorrow itself.

So, hurrah! Hunny finally rented his condo out. Kept telling him that I'm his lucky star... always bring luck to him, but he says I bullshit. Like when I followed him over there today, there's finally a taker for his condo (his condo has been sitting there for MONTHSSS, nobody wanna rent.). Maybe it's sheer coincidence... but I somehow feel that God made me his lucky star.

Maybe it's the mind power thing which my lecturer Mr Nehru thought us. I kept thinking and believing that if I'm beside Hunny, everything will go well for him. Like when he's in Genting gambling, I always believed that by standing beside him I'll bring extra luck for us both... and true enough he won. Same thing today.. I always believed that if he brings a person to view the unit and I'm there with him, the deal will run thru smoothly. But the past few times he didn't want me to follow him there, so I didn't folow. Only today he invited me to follow. And it's done!

I'm very happy for him that this problem has cleared up for him. I cannot wait for my saturday exam to clear up for me.. having this pounding headache since morning. Have taken a panadol this evening when it got real bad, and the pain has subside. Now it seems to be coming back again...

Happy Independence Day!

Now is 12.26am on Merdeka day... Happy Merdeka!!

This is the first year where Hyppo actually called me at midnight to wish me Happy Independence day... it had been really nice and sweet of him, that he calls me on and off.

He was in Shah alam for his company motivation camp for the past 2 days. His shedule is full of the activities lined up by the company, and at night chilling out with his colleagues.. but nevertherless he still calls me on and off. Makes me love him even more and more... (at least now I know it's worth it to clean his vomit in the middle of the night, and giving him my blanket while I freeze in the middle of the night.)

I think I've been a walking zombie for the whole week... From my last post, I said I was going to go on budget/diet mode.. and I did it today SUCESSFULLY!
Yesterday was a total failure when my colleagues suggested to go eat in Only Mee, the place which sells noodle for RM7.90, and it sucks. But I really didn't feel like eating alone, so I tagged along, and poof..there goes my RM8.

Today had been good..I didn't spend a single cent! I had free nasi lemak on my table when i went to work, so I kept that for my lunch. It was from a really unexpected kind soul. I went asking the whole world about the nasi lemak, and in the end found out it was him..what a pleasant surprise.

Work wise.. it's getting exciting. I find it exciting when there's proposal's to work on. Just that.. hope everything will go by smoothly.

Study wise... I've covered all the subjects 1 round, time to start going through it another round starting tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be well prepared by the time Saturday comes.

I really miss Hyppo... would really wish for a hug now. It has been so tiring in office (it's tiring, but yet I enjoy it..I get the satisfaction from it, and also I enjoy it because I know people are appreciating me for it), and I've been sleeping rather late lately too... I really would need a hug....

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Monday Blues

Monday Blues

28th August 2006 : 2356

Monday blues…very tired and sleepy… Was just thinking, I have had a good year so far. This year itself I’ve traveled quite a number of places.

In April was my 1st trip out to Spore with Eeyore and his parents. Went there to shop for Eeyore’s winter clothes to bring to Switzerland.

After April, in July we went for my diving trip to Tioman where I’m now a certified open water diver.

Early August, we went up Genting for Jim Brickman’s concert with Vivien and met up with Vivien’s friend there…

And recently last weekend, went again to Spore for Eeyore’s Lipo.

It had been nice traveling with Eeyore… like yesterday when I drove back from Spore back to KL… after we stopped by in Melaka, traffic was slow moving and it was getting boring, sky getting dark, and Eeyore was awake… nice to talk and chat while driving.

Only drawback is, this time around in Spore, I’ve spent 63hours straight wait him.. in between only that 4 hours of his surgery I was not by his side. And now I have to part from him for so sooo many days… Feel like I’m missing something.

My sore throat is making me cough now.. and I’ve just started my Diet mission today.. I’ve found a nice surprise for Hunny’s Bday in 2 months time. Now start budgeting and working my way there… Going to start ta-pau lunch from home, or eat those food from Jusco. Today I bought a packet of meehon goreng from Jusco which only cost RM2. Roti kosong there also RM1 only. Reasonable.. nasi lemak from near my house only cost 80cents.. can tap au. Let’s see how long I can maintain my Diet mission this time around. The last time I diet, I lasted only 1 week before I forgot I was on budget mode.

Day 2 in Spore

Day 2 in Spore
The first night there in Spore was horrible… Hyppo was giving loads of problem.

He took his sleeping pills, and that’s when he started to “sleep walk” all over the condo. Finally when he got tired, he went into the room to lie down and sleep. But lying down gave him hiccups. He then tried to vomit, but the only thing which came out is white color flame. He looked really ‘san fu’. As he was already drowsy and heavy on the sleeping pills, I doubt if he remembers what happened that night. After the white white stuff he vomited, he started vomiting blood mix chicken (his dinner that evening). Yucky stuff… He was good enuf to do it in the toilet the 1st few times around. He jst end up vomiting OUT of the basin or around the toilet bowl. He even vomited on my tooth brush. Yucks.. I cleaned up his vomit, throw him back into his bed then I went out to the living room to study. Thinking that’s the end of the story.

Before I could even read finish 2 pages, I heard him hiccupping again *groan*

I went to his room, and his hiccups got so bad that he was like a jelly bean, he somehow slipped onto the floor and sat there. He was in a position where there’s nothing at all to support his neck, and his head keeps lolling around that I prop myself up on my arms and let him rest his head on my sholder. After a while sitting on the floor, miraculously, his hiccups disappeared. Then the next problem began. I couldn’t get him to get up back onto the bed to sleep.

It’s exactly like how I’ll describe a corpse. You can do whatever you want to him, he won’t rebel. He has 1 of his feet beneath his thigh (his legs were tangled up like in a Yoga position), I had to pull his feet out and his feet actually scrapped across the parket floor, but that wasn’t bad enough to wake him. He was not co-operative at all when I kept talking to him trying to get him to wake up for at least 1 minute, and pull himself up the bed. He is probably twice my weight, and I had to drag him up onto the bed. Finally mission accomplished. I was so happy that he’s finally on the bed and sleeping… thought that’s the end.

But no… it was just the beginning, he suddenly jerked up going to throw up big time. I grabbed a plastic bag and shove it to him, he vomited into it. And the vomit came out from beneath the plastic bag!! There’s a hole in the bag *groan*. Shucks…

With that, he held the dripping bag, and float himself into the toilet. Throwing up again all over the wash basin and dripping the bloody vomit all over the toilet floor.

Clearing up the mess after that, almost made me vomit. It’s goo-ey, red…just yucky and it stinks terribly! He poked his finger into his throat and vomit out everything he has to vomit… and gladly enuf, that was the grand finale.. that was already close to 2am!

After I cleaned up everything, I was glad to see that he chose to lie on the bed instead… Glad he didn’t choose to lie on the floor like earlier.

I didn’t feel safe enough to let him sleep alone in the room, I wanted to be near him in case anything happens, so I went to sleep on the floor right at the foot of his bed.

Early in the morning, he decided to wake up at 5am, and he tried to kill me by stepping on me.

That was the drama during Friday night + Saturday early morning.

After breakfast (we tapau Pau’s from the night before), about 12noon, we took cab back to Toa Payoh, to see Andrew’s BIL and the professors who operated on him… They wanted to check him out to make sure he is fine. We had lunch at Toa Payoh too..had Dim Sum.. yummy.

After food, we went back to Cashew Heights to rest a while before going out dinner. I spent the afternoon studying while Andrew went to watch his movies.

About 5pm+ we drove back to 6th Avenue to meet Tina, and she took us to their cousin’s Sally’s place.. Together with Joshua, we had Japanese dinner. Funny thing about Joshua is, he doesn’t like holding my hands.. but he doesn’t mind holding hands with Andrew. Same as Celine…she likes to let me carry her and play with her… but she just refuses to let Andrew carry her. Hehe

After our Japanese dinner, we went back to Sally’s place for a while to wait for Tina to pick us up. I played with Celine a while until she seems to love me so much.. IN the car while driving home, she choose to sit on my lap to let me cuddle her. Such a warm and lovely feeling when she calls “che che” and crawls into my arms.

By the time we got back to 6th Ave, it was already 10pm+ and Andrew started watching his football match while I took a nap.

That 2nd night in Spore, Andrew didn’t have any vomiting problem at all. Just that he still hiccup’s and he was having amnesia. He couldn’t sleep and spent his whole night watching his movies in the living room until 3am+ when he woke me up to ask me to go sleep back in the room (I was sleeping on the sofa).

3am+ he went to bed, I think he barely slept cos I knew he kept getting out of the room and dunno where or what he does. He woke up very early too.. The room was so cold, but I didn’t wanna get up and wake him. He went a pull a miserable little towel as his blanket, and I donated my blanket to him… ended up my feets were freezing the whole night.

I got up, walked around and slept back.. only waking up at 10am and that’s when I bath and followed Andrew out for breakfast nearby Cashew Heights. Had this fishball noodle which tasted totally tasteless.

After breakfast, went back to Cashew Heights to pack up all our stuff while the King Andrew watches movie. But since he already declared himself as a patient, so nvm… I’ll do the packing.

After that, about 12+ we went back to 6th Avenue, go to clinic to meet andrew’s BIL there to change his dressing, and had lunch. This Andrew had to wear this garment around his stomach, like a corset. The minute he left spore, he already removed his garment to let his stomach breath. Started driving back about 3-4pm+ and only arrived back home about 9pm+.

Day 1 of Andrew’s Lipo-selection

Friday, Aug 25, 2006
22:46
Day 1 of Andrew’s Lipo-selection

Here we are in Singapore, Andrew walking up and down the house exercising hoping that it will speed up the recovery process.

We left KL about 6.45am, and he was in a super duper bad mood in the morning. So hot tempered and yelling at me when I said I left my handbag at home. Showed his ‘face’ again when he found out I didn’t make his breakfast for him. Somehow it completely didn’t cross my mind that he was going for an operation that afternoon itself… I just remembered that he loves durian, dad happens to have durian cake at home, dad asked if I wanted to bring some for Andrew. It didn’t cross my mind that durian is heaty and he shouldn’t be eating such food before his operation.

His moodiness and snappishness lasted the whole morning…..

We touched down in Spore about 10am+. Went straight to Tina’s house, parked the car there and took a taxi to Toa Pa Yoh, the clinic there. There were other people there for the Lipo-selection, at 12+ Andrew went for the checkup to test his BP.. he failed! His BP too high so he is unable to do the operation yet. Tina gave him some pills, and he rested while the other went first for the Lipo. Andrew only went in for his Lipo about 4+pm and he only finished about 8pm. I used the time to go walking and roaming the whole Hub in that area.

A little background of his Lipo surgery... He is going for this new technique call Lipo Selection (Different from the traditional Lipo Suction).

What they do first is, numb the whole area of the stomach with anesthetic first, then punch 3 holes on the stomach and fill the stomach with water. After that, they will insert the tube of the machine into the hole. This machine uses sound wave to break the fats in the stomach. The fats will mix around with the water and that's when another tube goes into the stomach to suck the fats mix water out of the stomach. Basicly that's about it. After the surgery, they will sew the wound up, and wear a garment over the stomach (like a corset).

As they have put in alot water into the stomach, Andrew looks bloated. It will take about 3 months for the water to drain itself out from the stomach, and about 6 months to really see the effect of this Lipo suction. He needs to take care of his diet and exercise in order to see the effect and maintain his body. It's more of shaping the body, rather then losing fat's for good.


The area around the clinic, is like Petaling Street area kind of place.. they have many stalls all selling different things, some going for really really cheap. I even bought a jacket for vivien at 5Sing.

I realy wonder how I did it.. but I actually stayed on the streets for so many hours idling around. I’ve never done such thing back in KL before. At 1 point of time , towards evening time, I was dead tired.. That I just went to sit on the bench there and look at people passing by me. It was fun too… like I’m a tourist in a foreign land exploring the area alone.

By the time Tina they all cleaned up the clinic and went for dinner, it was already 8pm+. Just went for dinner at the foodcourt nearby the clinic, then headed back home to bath and rest.

That was when Tina called and reminded Andrew not to sit still.. he has to move around to exercise… and that’s how it all started. This Andrew started walking up and down annoying me..see his backside moving up and down the living room.

Now he’s tired and has resorted to just lie on the sofa behind me… signal from God to tell me to stop blogging and start studying…

Goodnight

Wednesday, August 23, 2006


No bluff.. behind the card got my photo also. I got a Diver No. man... no bluff! My friends really still couldn't believe that I got certified as a diver. Now I can show off my card. Posted by Picasa

Guess what?? my Open water card is finally here! I'm a certified open water diver.. Hyppo promised to bring me see Dolphins & seahorses 1 day. Hope I'll get to see it by the time I turn 26 year old.. ($$ $$ ka ching ka ching..kena start makan roti from now on, so can save $$ $$ ka ching) Posted by Picasa

My newly bought dress.. Didn't wear it properly & I'm getting fat. See got fat's jutting out near my armpit.. Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

My father...

Bluek…it’s really getting on my nerves. I just want to be left alone so I can spend a quiet evening to study… but he has to keep getting on my nerves…not just tonight, EVERY NIGHT!!! Until I really cannot tahan that I just want to stay out of the house and only come home 10+pm to sleep.

1 minute he’ll come in with the newspaper, and put on my table. Next he’ll go out and cut a whole plate of fruits and put it on my table. Gosh..I just had dinner, how can I stuff anything else inside??. Then next, he will pour some sugarcane or whatever leong cha he has and tells me to drink it. Else, if I’m studying, he go and pour Yomeishu or Chicken Essence for me. Next, he’ll come in with the Astro card, stuff it into the decoder and switch on the tv. Man…

I’m doing my masters common…. I need time to stay home to study, not stay home to watch tv. I wanna relax also I would have gone out to hang out already. Even I wanna stay home to relax, I have my own way of relaxing.

I can be nicely listening to my radio, next minute he comes with the astro card and switch on the tv. TV + radio going on at the same time. GggggRrRrRrrr..cannot tahan.

Monday, August 21, 2006


Starlight cinema with Hyppo.. we brought over MC D for picnic... Posted by Picasa

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Flat Butt

10:12pm
I'm now currently taking a break from studying.. not to say I did much studying also, just a few pages *shy*. Reminds me of the time when I was back in Uni, spending my whole night in front of the book, multi tasking between studying and chatting with friends.

Actually I'm quite happy today. First time today I hear my parents concurring on the fact that Hyppo is my Boyfriend. It was in a discussion between my parents, grandma and my aunt.. then halfway 'my boyfriend' was brought up into the picture. My parents refer Hyppo as 'MY Boyfriend'.. it would probably sound silly to others who are reading my blog, but to me it means alot. My dad especially, usually refers Hyppo to as "HIM", or "that guy", or on his best day he will say "Andrew" (Andrew is the 1st guy whom he ever calls by the name.. the others he say he cannot remember their names and will jst give them each a nickname). But today he refers Hyppo as "MY Boyfriend"... and even 'proudly' told my aunt & grandma that 'MY Boyfriend' do come over to eat together with us every once a while.

Before the story of 'MY Boyfriend' came about, it has an even funnier story linked to it.

My dad's big sis from Spore is down in Sban to visit my granny. They were talking about my brother and said that my dad's 2nd sis side of the family (who were having conflict with my dad) is blaming that my dad is strict on us kids. Somehow say that my dad is being strict and won't even allow me to date, and say my bf has a FLAT BUTT, say I potential one day will be forced to run away from home too. The FLAT BUTT phrase really had me laughing none stop.

I do not know whom my aunt is referring to.. I don't know if they were talking about Hyppo, or about my past. I know in the past, many years ago my dad did complain that I was too young to see any guys.. so the aunt could be out-dated and was refering to last time, and not now currently.

That was when my dad defended and said that he never complained about MY BOYFRIEND.. in fact, MY BOYFRIEND even comes to join us for dinner and all that. It was just last week dad was saying that Vince is FLAT BUTT, that he has grown so skinny tat his butt is missing. I guess the story must have twisted somehow along the way...

But come to think of it..Hypo's butt is kinda flat too.

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11.40pm
I've spent the reminder of my evening yakking on the phone.

Hyppo still MIA.. Since 3pm he went to Sri Petaling with his friends until now he's not back yet. The amount of time I spend with him the whole week, totals up also is not anywhere near the amount of time he spends with his friends.

Think maybe I'm too boring for him... there's nowhere where me & him can go or do things together which last as long as the things he & his frens does. Since 3pm, I couldnt' even talk to him decently yet.. he keeps giving me stupid answers... check this out :

*My 1st call went ring until it went to voice mail, only my 2nd call he answered

W : Where are u
A : Jst finish snooker. Now yam cha. *very quiet environment
W : Where u go yam cha
A : *blabber blabber, he also dunno wat he saying, something about rooftop*
W : Then why so quiet one?
A : Oh..we still in the car
W : So quiet then why didn't pick up my 1st call?
A : phone stuck in my pocket
etc..

Doesn't that already show that he has a problem communicating to me properly? I have to ask 1 question, and he answer's 1 question..and his answers are not accurate, like saying that he is Yam Cha'ing, while he is still in the car!

I think we got communication problem... he dunno how to talk to me, and I dunno how to talk to him.

I wish he won't read my blog, then comment on it again... Wish he can just read it quietly if he wishes to. Or go have his OWN blog where he can write how he feel / think instead of always commenting on MY blog.

Hehehehe I simply blogged those stuff above with the intention to annoy MY Boyfirend. Hunny I Love u.. hehehehe

I suppose end of the day, as long as Hunny is happy, I'm happy too... ;) Already immuned to the fact that he chooses the tv + football + his fren over me.

A typical Man man... hate it & love it.... but i think I love it more, else I won't have choosen him.


BTW, I found back a super duper old friend today. Turns out that we're working in the same company, he was there since year 2004, and me since Apr 2005. But amazing is that we've never met. In the new building, we already moved in for about a month plus, and only last week I thought I saw him walking along the corridor, but wasn't sure if it was him. From the company directory, it shows that we both are supposed to be on the same floor too! Even more amazing that we've never met! Hope can meet up with this dear friend next week...

Friday, August 18, 2006

USB Fan

It's a very happy day today...

First of all, miraculously Hunny told me stories about his lunch time activity, about his colleagues, about what's happening in his life. Truely appreciate it ... at least it doesn't make me feel so ulu of not knowing what's happening in his life and not being part of it at all.

That is my happy yappy story of the day... Hunny made my day.

My next happy yappy story......

This evening, we went over to the curve / Ikano that side. Started on the mission to find a USB port fan, and the thai mat / chair which you can sit on and lean on the triangle part. I never knew USB fan exist... I saw it in Gizmoz 1Utama few days ago, and steven told me that computer stalls sell better USB fan. So I started on a USB fan hunt. The one in 1Utama was not so good also, the one me & hunny saw in Curve was fantastic. It was strong, small, portable, and quiet. Fantastico. Mission accomplished!

But I still cannot find the triangular thai mat yet for Hunny...

Tonight for a change, I will jolly well like to have a good night rest and to sleep early. Have been sleeping late until all my pimples are showing. I haven't told my parents that I'm going down Spore next weekend yet also =p Will have to tell this weekend...

Starlight Starbright


Starlight Starbright
It was a nice experience at Starlight cinema last night. Right after work me, hyppo and vivien went to Sentul Park, KLPAC for Starlight - the outdoor cinema festival which will end this week.


When we got there, it was only 6+, booked our 'spot' right in the middle of the field and had our dinner - Mc Donalds. Our movie - Just my luck is only at 8pm, so we had ample time to sit around and eat. Slowly, as time was nearing to 8pm, the field starts to fill up with many many people.. everyone bringing their own mat's and food. Some even brought pillow's.


Amazing enough, it wasn't hot. I expected it to feel humid and hot and sticky.. typical Msia weather. But amazingly, it was rather ok.. I didn't even sweat. You can sit, or lie down to watch the show, and u can do it without blocking anyone behind you..that's the best - nobody blocks anybody.


It was indeed an experience. It's fun also being under the stars (it was rather cloudy last night, not much stars though) and hugging my Hyppo. Taking turns to lie on each other's leg and it was comfortable also.. something different from the cold cold indoor cinema which you are just limited to the space of your chair seat. You cannot lie, u cannot pull yr leg long long, you cannot sit cross legged. But in the open air cinema, you can lie, you can lean back on yr elbow, you can sit with your legs stretched out, sit with your legs crossed etc etc, anyway you want.

See no evil, hear no evil, talk to evil.

17th August 2006 - 11.37pm

Sometimes you cannot help but to notice & start wondering…

Andrew does not believe in talking to me about his life, his work, his friends, his passion... cos i suppose to him it is a GUYS thing, and also cos to him, i'm too stupid to understand what he says, so he has to keep it all as secret. I cannot even ask him 'wat are u doing', cos he will not answer me. I cannot ask who he is with, cos he won't answer me either. He doesn't tell me ANYTHING about what he does, who he hang out with, what they talk, what he did... I think I know even more about my colleagues, more then I know about my own bf!

I believe in sharing, especially with the people I love. I will tell him everything about what happened, anything good, bad.. all. But sometimes when you don’t get the same respond back, it annoys you. I trust he has nothing to hide, but it’s just annoying that I have to keep asking the same question again and again, and he simply beats around the bush to avoid answering my question. I dunno wat’s his purpose of doing it today.. I just asked where he went. He answered he is in the lift. I asked again, he said he went downstairs. I asked AGAIN, he said he was with Po Wai. And I had to ask AGAINNNN, then he very reluctantly say he went to look at car. I simply do not see why he cannot just tell me on the spot, he had to get ppl to ask him the same question so many gadzillion time only he answer.

The best award winning answer I get all the time “it’s a guy thing, you do not understand so why do I bother telling you about it”.

This is one thing I do not understand… if you do not share with me, how do u expect me to understand? I never said I hated football, and I know you love football. So I took the initiative to offer to watch football with you.. but you just pushed me aside and told me to go home, say football is a guy thing which I don’t understand, I get bored and I shouldn’t be watching it, should go home and just leave him alone.

There are lots of things I don’t understand also, that’s why I enjoy mingling around and listen to what others have to say. I know nuts about unit trust, but I still have friends who sits down and explain to me. I also know nothing about the engineering world or business world… but ppl are patient enough to explain to me. So why can’t he? He jst say I'm stupid and that I dunno, means I dunno and I can never know.

I know to him, I’m always dumb, just an idiot. I will always remain as an idiot in his eyes.

I think it is a sign from God, telling me to stop blogging about him, as out of the blues he just called me up while I was halfway typing. Never has he called me at nite at all in the past few nights, and tonight is THE nite he called.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Hot hot sunday noon

13th August – 4.45pm
It’s the time of the day where I cannot concentrate at all on my assignments / studies. It’s hot outside, and it’s making me sleepy and tired. All I feel like doing is to just sleep and sleep and sleep.

Something crossed my mind yesterday evening. I watched this Hong Kong drama the day before, and it features this girl who is successful in career, has the looks, has the $$ and yet she is single, and not committed to anyone. She has her own apartment, and as she’s not committed to anyone, she is free to do whatever she pleases and to date whomever she wishes. With her looks and money, she can easily get which ever guys she pleases but she’s enjoying all the freedom of being single.

At some point of time in the past when I didn’t have anyone beside me, I did envision myself to be leading such life. Told myself .. if I can have career, money and I can flirt with any guy I please (have a variety of different guys to pamper me), so why I wanna box myself up to commit myself with 1 guy, get married and start a family?

In fact, during that point of time I was indeed really going out with different guys and not wanting to commit into any relationship’s at all. Initially it was fun, hanging out with different people, no commitment, all just for the sake of fun.. but later it started to sux.

I realize that I want someone solid and real to be with me. I want someone whom I can tell and share everything with. That’s when I met my Evil Monster… my prince charming who swept me off my feet.

A real devil in disguise is he. He showed me that nothing is impossible when he managed to quit smoking. He thought me what is called give and take when we both have to compromise with each other. It was great having him around.

Like when I was sick once with high fever. During lunch time he took me to the clinic, bought porridge for me to eat and took care of me as I rest in his house for the rest of the afternoon.

How the many times when I was sad / angry / disappointed / scared (especially during that time when I was terrified of diving), how he will reach out and give me comforting hugs and assure me that diving is not scary and that I swim well like a mermaid.

How when I’m looking for a companion for breakfast / meals and he’ll always be there to accompany me and give me a lift to anywhere I wanna go.

I’m really lucky to have met Evil Monster. He showed me what love is really all about.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006


Condo for Rent Posted by Picasa

Sunday, August 06, 2006

An Evening with Jim Brickman

Before I blog about my evening with Jim Brickman, I shall blog about my Form6 gathering with my mates on Friday evening.

There's Me, Prof Khoo, Ah Boy, Long Neck and Alvin. We went to Ampang for Seafood dinner. In the place there itself, we bump into Ah Beh... It has been almost 4 years since I last saw him. The gathering was great and fun.. Stuffed and very full with the seafood too.

Saturday.....
After my classes and all, Me & my sis followed Eeyore up to Genting about 3pm. First we were jst lepaking and walking around in 1st world, when we saw ppl up the stage... Found out that it was Jim Brickman's autograph session going on on the stage. Straight away Eeyore bought his CD which was on sale, and we got his autograph on the CD.

From there we picked up Vivien's fren from 1st world hotel and we seperated for a while... they went for the indoor theme park when me & Eeyore went into the Casino. Eeyore won abit of $$, manage to pay for all our expenses while we were in Genting, and also this wonderful jacket to wear.

AFter that, we met back up for dinner together and headed to Arena of Stars for an evening with Jim Brickman.

It was a great evening of listening to love songs and all. I've always found Jim Brickman's music a little simple.. that it sounds plain if he were just to play the piano without any vocal's singing.

Honestly, the concert wasn't as good as I expected it to be... This is 1 concert that from day 1 I've met Hyppo, he already said he liked Jim Brickman's song, said that he never got a chance to watch him in concert. Finally this year, we both got a chance to go watch him for FOC. There's that few songs of his which is ever famous, songs which includes vocals in it like Valentine, Destiny, this Gift.. those are the best! I prefered the original version of the songs we hear on radio & CD, rather then what was showcased in the concert. But however, it was still a good concert.

Classic photograph of myself... taken by my Hyppo Bunny Posted by Picasa

Another great picture taken by a professional photographer - Ms Winnie Mickey Wong Posted by Picasa

Photo of my Hunny Bunny... Wonder if I can send this picture for a photo contest.. see how great the photo shot was. As if it's taken by some professional photographer. Posted by Picasa

Jim Brickman's guest artiste for the show - Fauziah Latiff, Pheobe, *a guy*, and Jim Brickman himself! Posted by Picasa

Jim Brickman Autograph Session in Genting Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Lantern Festival and Doulos ship

I have had a great weekend, after a whole week of hu-hah’ing and ding dong’ing around, glad I still had time to squeeze in some fun time.

Last week was full of crap.. Office work is as usual. A colleague went for plastic surgery for her chin, leaving me with some works which I have to back her up also. On top of all that, every night last week I had to drive thru the jam and get myself to Bkt Jalil for my Master classes.

Classes this time around I think it’s ok, at least not as crappy as my 1st Module – BCI. This time around, I took up a database class – EDS, subject wise it is less crappy but the lecturer is full of crap. The amount of strategic planning games, team building games he comes up with.. my goodness. It’s fun in a way, but then after work have to squeeze yr mind to think of answers and how to play the games..sometimes feel it’s abit waste of time. Better to save the time, finish up the lecture then go home early.

Back to my ‘gempak’ weekend. After a whole week of endless classes after work, I got my Friday off. No classes on Friday, but I still ended up in Bkt Jalil somehow. Went to this Lantern Festival with Eeyore. Before that, we went to Sri Petaling and tried out this Korean restaurant. Very cute place. Eeyore ordered this beef dish… First they came up with multiple small plates with sour’ish dishes or vege’s, patato’s, cucumber, long beans. Then they cook the beef on the hot plate right in the middle. We were dip the beef in some sauce, use the vege to wrap up the beef (like popiah), but salad and chilli inside..and then eat it.

While blogging, there’s many distractions… halfway promoting Eeyore’s condo..hope someone will rent it. A uni friend is now working in TPM, mentioned that his colleagues are looking for a place nearby to rent, he saw my caption on the condo to rent so he asked me for more info. Just hope it’ll be good news.

You know… on Friday I had some documents which needs this guy to sign, but he’s in Seremban. He told me to leave it in his locker, on the phone I heard he said locker 234. So I went to locker 234, I didn’t see his name card on it, but I just didn’t bother I took the documents and dump it in there. Today after a whole morning of hu-hah… about 5pm, he told his secretary that he didn’t see any doc’s in his locker. My goodness…Of cos…I know the document won’t just simply grow legs and walked away. Definitely it must have been me who placed it in the wrong locker number. If I lose the document, I better be off dead. From 18th floor, while walking, I kept praying. Prayed that I can still retrieve the document. Lucky enough… really very lucky enough, I dumped it in locker 234, and the guy’s actual locker is 224. It even has his namecard stuck onto locker 224. And even luckier, locker 234 is not owned by anyone. The keys to the locker is still stuck onto the locker, so I can easily jst turn the key, open the locker and retrieve the doc. OH man…very darn lucky. Somemore, I even wonder how come I didn’t notice the key stuck onto the locker when I dump the document inside on Friday? Whatever it was, I really thank God that it’s still there.

Back to my weekend… After the Korean dinner, we went for the lantern festival.. nothing much to see, but it was fun to walk see with Eeyore. Moreover bcos of the classes, I haven’t seen him for a whole long week, and I already miss him. In the festival, there’s this super duper long dragon, made up of porcelain cups, plates, spoon, saucer cups all held into place by strings. Amazing.

There’s a humongous Twin Tower made up of little recycled bottles, filled up with coloured waters just to illustrate the color of Twin Tower. Another one was this huge 2 pheonix bird, made out of those silk cocoons. There’s a few other things which I don’t quite remember. And of cos there’s the other huge buildings and designs they made using paper / plastic, and it was lighted up at night, so it simply looks great.

Well, those is wat I did on Friday. Saturday, it’s the usual.. teach in the morning, and I had classes in the afternoon. After class, when I reached Jln Gasing, I spotted a huge gigantic clear rainbow streaking the sky… I got so excited that I couldn’t drive properly. Straight away went to shiv’s place, took her camera and we started snapping photo’s of the rainbow, and ourselves in it too.. It only lasted for about 5-10minutes before it started to fade. It was a full complete rainbow, and it was very distinct also. When I get hold of the pic, I’ll load it up. I’ve spent my Saturday night lazing around at home. Bro was home, so it was an evening of just lepak around.

Sunday, again..another day of classes. After class, in the afternoon, I followed Eeyore and Audrey’s family over to Port Klang to visit the Doulos ship…

When I was young, I have been onto Doulos ship before, and I was always under the impression that it’s a huge gigantic, mighty ship with tons and tons and tons of books, puzzles and all sort of stuff from around the world.

But when we went up the boat on Sunday… I was thinking “this is it? That’s all?”. It was smaller and simpler then what I’ve always imagined.. there isn’t even jigsaw puzzles on sale… but anyway, just for the fun of it, again it was great traveling there and spending time together with Eeyore and Audrey’s family.. esp with the 2 cute a-pet (audrey’s kids).

Now it’s already past midnight.. tomorrow a hectic day again.. Tuesday’s is always the crazy day for endless reports… and it has started raining too…

Amazing doll made out of coloured flour Posted by Picasa

Phoenix made of silk cocoon's.. Posted by Picasa

Monday, July 31, 2006


Korean Restaurant Posted by Picasa

Me & my hunny at Bkt Jalil Lantern festival Posted by Picasa

Sunday, July 30, 2006


Doulos ship in Port Klang Posted by Picasa

Thursday, July 20, 2006


My workstation Posted by Picasa

My workstation in new office Posted by Picasa

Missing the Beach

Same day, same time last week, I was at the beachside listening to the guys chit chat among themselves and listening to the wave splashing onto shore.

Now, I'm stuck in the office... need to be careful and watch my ass everyday.

We've all moved into our new office. On the bright side, I have my own permanent desk, and I can put as much stuff as I wish on top of it. On the downside, I have to be constantly at the edge of my seat fearing for the worst, and bracing myself as anytime work will flow to me and will also get scolding unexpectedly.

So nice if can sit on the beach everynight to chill out.

Food is getting more and more expensive to eat around office, and I guess I'm getting more and more kiasu with $$ too. In a way, my new seating arrangement gives me more peace, nobody kacau me that much there and so I can really concentrate on my work without getting distracted. But then, it get's boring at times also...

Counting how many more months I need to save 1st, before I can afford to go on another holiday. hehe See Saw Yokey invited me to go over Aust for her convo this December... Financially, it's not a good time to travel yet.

Monday, July 17, 2006


My bunny trying to look and act cute. hehe Posted by Picasa

This is the kind of boat which we use to go out to the islands for our dive Posted by Picasa

Beach view from the Jetty.. can see the dive center from here?? That's the beach which I spend all my nights lepaking around there. Posted by Picasa